One sadhana: one focus

So, in a way sadhana acts like a boat, that takes you over the turbulence of your own mind whose only instinct is the constant need to recreate itself. This natural, biological, neurochemical  turbulence is ideal for this sort of reinvention. One, it provides many possibilities for the mind to invent itself. Also, it is where eddies of patterns, ancient (sanchita and prabhda karma and your samskaras, from 8.4 lakh lives, as Shankaracharya says, lie hidden). Even the turbulence of your mind can be handled (if you are in safe, strong boat/sadhana). But what do you do about the eddies, the hidden, cunning ones that draw the boat down, set to drown you?

You will find out the patterns are stubborn. They seem to have been won over. But the victory is short-lived. Like in those thriller films you may seen, the eddy is where your boat gets stuck. You cannot move, even as  the turbulence of your mind rolls over you. Here is where some of us get stuck -- sadhana notwithstanding. It can even break the boat. It's intent, to sink you:)

A lot of spiritual anger one feels comes from this... How do you break that eddy, that relentless pattern.

Here, it is again, that act of grace. If you keep on trying, continuing in a state of faith (not religiously, but spiritually) sure that something will crack this relentless drag, then...

That is what all the scriptures say: be steadfast. Hang on, spiritually. That needs a lot of courage. But more than that, a great thirst... Can the turbulence, and the drag of the eddy, tire you from your hold ... fling you back, so you have to start all over?

8.4 lakh lives, not knowing. Being flung back, again and again:(